Seeking Sunshine


My spiritual journey has definitely changed over the past few years.  Before I was a parent, I had the luxury of attending weekend retreats away and being a part of regular prayer and meditation nights.  I also made space for connecting with God through journaling and solitude days.  Since becoming a parent, I don’t have the time for most of these practices in this season of life.  I’m lucky to squeeze in a prayer night once in awhile with my girlfriends or an hour of quiet time here and there. Continue reading “Seeking Sunshine”

Please Don’t Take My Sunshine Away

A few weeks ago, I attended a fun event at Fashion Island at Newport Colony Baby & Paperie where I won the grand prize of the evening in a series of giveaways.  This gorgeous picture is now hanging in my living room, even though it’s probably made for a child’s room.  I think it’s great!  Thank you, Newport Colony!!  If you have never been to their Baby & Paperie store, it’s adorable.  So many fun things I want in there for my kiddos.

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The words of the song remind me me so much of people who exude light and positivity.  It is a great reminder to keep surrounding myself with people like this.  Too many times in my life I have let people in who I knew weren’t the most uplifting of personalities.  I’m much more selective with my time these days and who I choose to spend it with, since God knows I don’t have much.  This quote by Joel Osteen pretty much sums it up!


I’m thankful for the close friendships I have – each one is such a positive and encouraging source in my life (you know who you are!).  On the note of being positive, I have needed to hear this message myself lately.  It’s been a hard season – having small children and a husband who works long hours can make me feel exhausted and defeated some most days.  Two kids has felt like what I expected having four to be like.  For those of you who have 3, 4, or 5 small children – I honestly don’t know how you do it!  I feel like I am constantly meeting demands all day with “just” two little ones.  By the end of the day, I’m emotionally and physically drained.  My sunshine feels taken away…it’s been hard to see the glass half full some days.

Right when I needed it, a girlfriend sent me a blog post on accepting the chaos of motherhood, and it helped change my perspective as a stay at home mother (and being a mom in general).  Kids will make messes.  Kids won’t always sleep when you want them to.  They’re slow.  You have to teach them everything.  It’s part of the job.  Like the blog author, I was getting to the point where I was sick of hearing myself complain, so I can’t imagine how my husband must have felt!  I do feel there is such a thing as healthy venting, but I was in full complaining mode!  Since reading that message, I’ve felt a little more positive all around.  If I expect less, then I won’t be so disappointed on the days they don’t nap at the same time or they’re both being extra clingy, etc. I realized I’m in charge of my own sunshine.


Words to live by!